ngl, being too lazy to plan some kind of last stand has probably kept me from self-harm more than anything else. i have been utterly miserable, but i have too many people i hate, people i have a vendetta against, who have done evil, who are doing evil, who will continue to do evil the rest of their careers if not one intervenes to stop them. can't waste such a precious opportunity to leave the world without dragging some of the evil with me. i guess it's really fucking dark, but clinging onto that got me through some really rough times. not too recently, i am all right now. but it's fragile, the dark is always just one piece of bad news away.
I'm not necessarily advising going out with guns literally blazing, Nat-Turner or John-Brown style. Not even in minecraft. Isolated acts of terror are generally not effective at winning working-class solidarity. Working to leave subtler dents and bruises against capital, or to build the forces that will eventually unleash proletarian wrath against the ruling class (in minecraft) may be a better use of your time.
ngl, being too lazy to plan some kind of last stand has probably kept me from self-harm more than anything else. i have been utterly miserable, but i have too many people i hate, people i have a vendetta against, who have done evil, who are doing evil, who will continue to do evil the rest of their careers if not one intervenes to stop them. can't waste such a precious opportunity to leave the world without dragging some of the evil with me. i guess it's really fucking dark, but clinging onto that got me through some really rough times. not too recently, i am all right now. but it's fragile, the dark is always just one piece of bad news away.
I'm not necessarily advising going out with guns literally blazing, Nat-Turner or John-Brown style. Not even in minecraft. Isolated acts of terror are generally not effective at winning working-class solidarity. Working to leave subtler dents and bruises against capital, or to build the forces that will eventually unleash proletarian wrath against the ruling class (in minecraft) may be a better use of your time.