One of my boys must have some sensory things going on with his feet. If anything's on the ground he has to go stand on it and he can be particular about having his shoes taken off or his fret touching anything whilst asleep.

I'm wondering if there's anything I can do for him or if it's just a phase of growing up. I only see it as a problem because he's constantly walking on things that could be slip hazards because he has to feel it

Lol daylight savings time can get bent.

I'm just so tired. Kid is back to back sick, partner is a day or two behind to catch the same bugs, and I keep not getting sick so I'm picking up a lot to keep the wheels spinning. I'm desperate for like one night of just not being needed so I can recharge, and it's just not happening. We have no support network, I'm the only driver, and I work from home so sick day means no work getting done, and I fairly desperately need the raise I'm trying to make happen. I am completely burnt and unable to summon the emotional energy to be regularly intimate (not even just sexually, I'm barely really managing "present"), and I do not know what the fuck to do. On one hand I feel bad for not being able to respond every time I am needed, but on the other hand I feel like I'm doing everything already and I can't even find the space to process what I'm feeling because everyone else is having a bad time.

3rd week in a row with a new sickness I guess. First was COVID, then stomach bug, now some sort of cold. My partner and I both feel like shit today. I thought it was because we drank last night but I only had 3 glasses and that's my current off for bad hangover. I should have been in the clear. I've been eating aspirin like candy because ive had a headache for 4 days.

Partner seems to have same symptoms. Kids are doing fine though.

I had 2 interviews last week and was offered the first one on the spot. It's part time seasonal delivery for Amazon. The second one is for a local IT company. I masked the heck up on that interview and did my best to act like a human. I think they might have bought it. I really think I did good. They are of course early in in the process so who knows.

Other than that, it's the big week. I got my vasectomy scheduled for this Thursday. I need to do a tiny bit of prepping. I really hope the IT gig calls me before than so I know if I can smoke or not while in recovery. Last thing I wanna do is take a chance and self medicated, then they want me to pee in a cup.

That's about it for the roux household this week.

I am starting to do a bit of research about whether or not I may be enby too. Right now I'm leaning towards probably not, I just don't care about things being gender-coded and I'm maybe just a bit feminine. Idk. Might talk to my therapist about it.

Kiddo is a little over 8 months now. So we're into the thick of the next big sleep regression. Have had to go back to co-sleeping when his night time cot sleep fails, which through this time has happened most nights. And last week we all had a cold, which meant congestion, and boy did that suck for his sleep.