Hey chapos. I'm a longtime lurker and I should start off by saying I appreciate you all a lot.
I've considered calling suicide prevention before, but I've never done it, partly out of fear that I would get targeted ads for the rest of my life about depression, etc., and that' s really upsetting to me. Is there a clever way to contact mental health resources which avoids that issue, at least at the surface level?
As in, I don't care if the most dedicated NSA operative ever could find this out about me, only that it isn't super publicly traded information about my health between corporations, if that makes sense. Thanks
As someone who has suffered from depression, mental health and has had multiple suicide attempts, I want to tell you personally not to give up. I know it's tough and hard in life, but there's someone out there that cares about you. You might not have found that person yet, but they are out there.
As for calling suicide prevention, I have no experience. Music is what really helped me in my hardest times. I some how would lose myself in music and forget about life all together. Sounds stupid, I know, but it worked for me. Video games that were immersive and had a certain atmosphere to get lost within, also helped.
One good thing about the internet is that we can reach out to one another when we need help, even if we are just strangers.
I don't think that's stupid at all, thanks for the suggestion. I'm playing some sekiro right now, and that's making a difference.
Anyway - my goal is just to talk to somebody I don't know. It's hard to explain, but it feels like everyone who know me personally has an agenda that I just don't want to interact with. For example, talking to loved ones doesn't work - they obviously, almost selfishly, want me to be OK. I need to talk to someone who's less invested so I can be completely honest.
I feel you there on people having an agenda. I totally understand, that's why I quit talking to people I know in real life when I'm at my lowest point.
None of us truly know each other here as we have a level of anonymity. I think your voice is more than welcome.