Smashing your pipe for us might be more counterproductive than you expect. In my experience, the act of professing/proving something to a bunch of people gives my brain the same sensation as if I had already accomplished the whole thing, which saps my motivation to actually do the thing. IE I would snap my last cigarette to my friends like I was quitting that day... and then my brain was like, "you can keep smoking you just gotta be sneaky!" I call it a false victory dance and it never helped me quit smoking. What did, was my brother deciding to quit one day and I decided to join him so we could do it together.
These pandemic days are probably the hardest time for anyone to quit hard drugs. It's not going to be that easy to find a new hobby or person or place to occupy the time and make some new dopamine sources. I was with my BFF during his heroin stint (even pricked him for a while until he learned to do it himself) and withdrawal really sucks. Friends make it easier, but those friends have to be on your side about quitting and they have to make the effort to come up with other things to do instead of use. Your brain is moldable until literally your 80's though so don't worry, the receptors will rebuild and life will have something to offer on the other side. Wish I was nearby to be one of those friends. I'm rooting for you babe.
Smashing your pipe for us might be more counterproductive than you expect. In my experience, the act of professing/proving something to a bunch of people gives my brain the same sensation as if I had already accomplished the whole thing, which saps my motivation to actually do the thing. IE I would snap my last cigarette to my friends like I was quitting that day... and then my brain was like, "you can keep smoking you just gotta be sneaky!" I call it a false victory dance and it never helped me quit smoking. What did, was my brother deciding to quit one day and I decided to join him so we could do it together.
These pandemic days are probably the hardest time for anyone to quit hard drugs. It's not going to be that easy to find a new hobby or person or place to occupy the time and make some new dopamine sources. I was with my BFF during his heroin stint (even pricked him for a while until he learned to do it himself) and withdrawal really sucks. Friends make it easier, but those friends have to be on your side about quitting and they have to make the effort to come up with other things to do instead of use. Your brain is moldable until literally your 80's though so don't worry, the receptors will rebuild and life will have something to offer on the other side. Wish I was nearby to be one of those friends. I'm rooting for you babe.