Let's get controversial.
My parents expect me to be their caretaker when they're older but once I'm financially independent no one in my family will see me again.
I was raised in a progressive, liberal family so I thought I was super unprejudiced but as I came into contact with more diverse environments than the one I came up in, I realized I absorbed lots of fucked-up prejudices from our society on a subconscious level, particularly about black people. I definitely have to catch myself and be aware of it.
if you are white that means you are racist by default because we live in a society
Yeah, my brain is pretty racist. It's been a thing I've been working to undo. Watched Black Lighting and a few episodes of Dear White People on Netflix. Fixed.
Yeah just because I have progressive beliefs doesn't make me not racist. I have to actively combat racist thoughts all the time. By the way, sexual pathology has a GREAT deal to do with it to the surprise of absolutely no one.
I used to prioritize minority partners because it made me feel better about myself and gave me a pass to say obscene things during my most Lib days. It was pretty fucked up.
for a period i was exclusively dating black men because they were the only other leftists in town
First time I ever had sex was with a dude I met on Craigslist back when they had a personals section. I was tired of waiting, I guess. It was okay. I lie now and say it was with my first boyfriend. Jokes on them, I’ve never had a boyfriend.
They banned them after the anti-backpage sex-trafficking laws were passed
I used to be an right libertarian proto-incel male before becoming a communist catgirl
So for non-irish people what is the lib rage over sf? I had an irish guy tell me once that they're all criminals.
i sometimes want to kill myself just so i could blame it on the people who’ve abused me and have them feel bad forever. but that sounds crazy to say even if the people have done 10x worse things to me. i am trying to work on such angry thoughts.
Ditto but with depression. I'm sure part of the reason why people get depressed and suicidal is because its a protest against their circumstances.
I am also convinced of this and the trend in healthcare to try and reduce all psychiatric disorders to sheer imbalance of neurotransmitters in the brain or similar purely chemical causes seems dangerous to me (and a sad reflection of the extreme materialism that characterizes our modern societies). Because it's recently been discovered there's harmine in psychedelic mushrooms and it's a MAOI, for example, I've read researchers seriously suggesting that this was the reason mushrooms seem to help tremendously with depression (among others). Ignoring, as an aside, the fact that many of the trials that showed such effects used pure (extracted or synthesized) psilocybin. It can't be the introspection and the immense life-transforming experience that helps people reflect on themselves, consciousness and the world in general; it has to be a MAOI anti-depressor effect. That continues working for months after you only took it a few times, apparently.
I think you're right, and I now feel I misinterpreted his comment.
And what the pharmacologists are trying to figure out is why you’re both having this ostensibly life-changing experience with the shrooms
On that though, my point was that the "feeling more positive" / helping against depression aspect is in my mind purely the result of the experience itself - that is, the actual events you experience while under the effect and your own self-reflection and integration on them - and not a "direct" pharmacological consequence of the compound being administered. Software (consciousness), not hardware (chemical reactions in the brain on a lower scale) - yes, I know the analogy sucks but I'm not sure I'm expressing myself properly. As such, I don't see how pharmacologists could figure out such a thing given our current abysmal understanding of consciousness itself - perhaps psychologists could venture a guess, but that's about it.
My parents were like if get addicted to the hard stuff (heroin) they wouldn't let me live with them(possibly still look out for me), because they knew that addicts steal\do whatever they can for the next hit(from personal experience). So it wasn't just you that stole, it was mostly the addiction. It is the same for every addict.
The other condition for throwing me out btw. Was if i became a nazi.
