Teetering today between having a psychotic episode and outright bursting into tears at work whilst "Quand fera-t-il jour, camarade" and "Drapeau Rouge" play on loop constantly in my head whilst I contemplate cutting a finger off on work machinery so I can go home early. Thinking that if I tell a therapist that I have serious ideations of self-harm that I have to explain to them, in excruciating detail, what those may be and that if they involve a crime they are required to snitch up the chain, thus dissuading me from discussing my issues in total honesty.

Apart from that it's been normal tho.