I just condense that feeling down to a few moments of panic a week when I'm reminded, until I can calm myself down by remembering what agency I do have

No one lives forever, but the effects of our actions can: I say just try to learn and grow as much as you can to help and support others so that they can learn and grow, and maybe that ripple of good will spread out and amplify and join together with countless other ripples to become a great wave.

Everything is made from the conditions that created it, 1917 happened because of earlier failed revolution, which itself was set into motion by a historical wave that began as mere disparate ripples going back decades before it