Feeling like depressed shit. Spent all yesterday just sitting on the couch for hours alternately scrolling through twitter, c.c., facebook, youtube, twitch, steam, switch games, finding literally nothing that looks halfway interesting or worth engaging with. Going to bed and lying awake for hours. Feel like I'm so good at pretending to be okay it's prevented me from actually being okay. I've got so much practice I hardly know how else to act.