Thank you for your great take! I especially appreciate your biological take down of CICO as I can also personally attest to it not being that easy.

Growing up , my family was very forceful about me eating all my vegetables etc. My coping strategy for this was to drink A Lot of liquids with dinner and then be "full", and I think this contributed to me being really skinny. Additionally I think I have a fair bit of Orthorexia. After leaving home I managed to gain some muscle in the gym, but I really struggle to eat more than my caloric intake bc of how interrelated food is with your brain. Like I can eat a lot one day, but then on the following days my body will subtly decrease my sense of hunger and I just won't be interested in food.

I've especially noticed how different my response to eating is to fatter people who describe wolfing down fast food and finding so much joy (orgasmic) from eating. I do enjoy meals, but I never feel like a bottomless pit or crave a fast food. Hunger also manifests completely differently in me. When I'm hungry, I hardly notice it (except for cold extremities) but I become super focused and easily angered. I hear fat people talk about a need to eat, which I can't relate to at all — right now it's more my rational brain that tells me that logically I should eat soon because that is good for me. I don't think I'm "broken", but I do think that we never really talk about how much variety there can be in the response to food and hunger

It is convenient that my body type is societally Good for men, but it just doesn't bring me joy. And I agree that it is so hard to find resources, support etc for going the other way.