The "haha - my life is shit" realization is this can be you at ANY FUCKING POINT in your life while living under capitalism. Fuck me, I was having the same anxiety over taking my wife and daughter on vacation because on one hand we all know "down time is important" but on the other hand spending too much money and not socking it away for all my future pain is actually being a bad citizen. Another example: my dad lives with me because "he made bad decisions" (read: he's not rich) and will die here because we don't care if our elderly die in shame.
I mean, it's basically any Sunday night x100. At no time are we really allowed to not be thinking about work. And again, that's true no matter where you are in life. Going to school? Because you want to get that good job when you're done. Joining the military? It's because they'll give you real world experience. Have a job? You should be thinking about how to become management. Hate working for people? Start your own business where you pay twice the taxes for half the money and no time off. How's your insurance? How's your retirement? Are you saving enough?
Meanwhile you pay for gas, transportation, parking, clothes, and food for the luxury of going to make other people money. And that's the real kick in the balls: you could quit but that would actually be worse. So the only thing shittier than working is being unemployed.
There is literally no such thing as getting ahead. There's no making it. There's no destination; just more journeys in misery. And if you complain or merely point out how this is all less than ideal, you're the problem. You're the one with something wrong.
I know I am going to die anyways so I am fucked either way. I am just working as hard as I can to end up doing a job where I feel satisfied within my labor. Hoping to be a teacher. I grew up poor, I know how to be poor, but I do not know how to cope with working 10 hours a day just making a boss richer.
The "haha - my life is shit" realization is this can be you at ANY FUCKING POINT in your life while living under capitalism. Fuck me, I was having the same anxiety over taking my wife and daughter on vacation because on one hand we all know "down time is important" but on the other hand spending too much money and not socking it away for all my future pain is actually being a bad citizen. Another example: my dad lives with me because "he made bad decisions" (read: he's not rich) and will die here because we don't care if our elderly die in shame.
At no point can you or will you ever relax.
Worst part about vacation is that last day when you can no longer focus on your own wellbeing because you keep thinking about how it's your last day.
I mean, it's basically any Sunday night x100. At no time are we really allowed to not be thinking about work. And again, that's true no matter where you are in life. Going to school? Because you want to get that good job when you're done. Joining the military? It's because they'll give you real world experience. Have a job? You should be thinking about how to become management. Hate working for people? Start your own business where you pay twice the taxes for half the money and no time off. How's your insurance? How's your retirement? Are you saving enough?
Meanwhile you pay for gas, transportation, parking, clothes, and food for the luxury of going to make other people money. And that's the real kick in the balls: you could quit but that would actually be worse. So the only thing shittier than working is being unemployed.
There is literally no such thing as getting ahead. There's no making it. There's no destination; just more journeys in misery. And if you complain or merely point out how this is all less than ideal, you're the problem. You're the one with something wrong.
Basically. You're fucked.
I know I am going to die anyways so I am fucked either way. I am just working as hard as I can to end up doing a job where I feel satisfied within my labor. Hoping to be a teacher. I grew up poor, I know how to be poor, but I do not know how to cope with working 10 hours a day just making a boss richer.