My brain was badly wired before I joined the army then got out and entered the “workforce.” My mental health is a joke. So many suicide attempts and idealization. (Attempts I guess meaning gun, loaded, to the head, finger on the trigger) I’ll never know if I was too brave or too much of a coward to do it.

Historical/dialectical materialism saved me in a way. At least it introduced me to a new way of viewing the world, and connecting all of it together. What keeps me going now is my gf, dogs, and willingness to learn and organize for the working class under the guiding ideology of Marxism-Leninism.