I was even walking for like twenty minutes before I got extremely anxious haha! I spent a lot of time acutely looking for people's reactions and whatnot, but every time I saw and liked my reflection in a puddle or a window felt like such a victory and such a relief.

I can hardly imagine that anxiety ever really going away, but I also thought I was never going to get over my ex at one point either and now here we are. It's been a long and slow struggle towards self-acceptance but I finally feel like I'm making progress for the first time in years.

Thanks to this community for being so pro-trans and to all the trans comrades whose lack of fear and loud voices have made it impossible to cloak myself in denial. :trans-heart:

edit: thanks for the outpouring of support, it's been really validating :)

  • bubbalu [they/them]
    hexagon
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    4 years ago

    truly! I had maybe two people pointedly avoid eye contact with me, but that was it! I just tend towards paranoia and assume everyone is staring at me, but I'm working thru it.