I was even walking for like twenty minutes before I got extremely anxious haha! I spent a lot of time acutely looking for people's reactions and whatnot, but every time I saw and liked my reflection in a puddle or a window felt like such a victory and such a relief.

I can hardly imagine that anxiety ever really going away, but I also thought I was never going to get over my ex at one point either and now here we are. It's been a long and slow struggle towards self-acceptance but I finally feel like I'm making progress for the first time in years.

Thanks to this community for being so pro-trans and to all the trans comrades whose lack of fear and loud voices have made it impossible to cloak myself in denial. :trans-heart:

edit: thanks for the outpouring of support, it's been really validating :)

  • hamouy [he/him]
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    3 years ago

    Ain't nothing like finding who you're truly meant to be. Congratulations.

  • pubic_library [any]
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    3 years ago

    yay. especially with masks this stuff is super easy. :chapochat-trans:

    ive been going out in cuUuuUte knee length dresses and short heels often recently while working on my fashion and am building so much confidence, it just takes seeing that people have no reaction...

    • bubbalu [they/them]
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      3 years ago

      truly! I had maybe two people pointedly avoid eye contact with me, but that was it! I just tend towards paranoia and assume everyone is staring at me, but I'm working thru it.

  • SoyViking [he/him]
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    3 years ago

    You are an awesome person and I admire your courage :cat-trans:

  • penguin_von_doom [she/her]
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    3 years ago

    Good job! All first steps are a little scary, especially when others get to see us.

    I can hardly imagine that anxiety ever really going away, but I also thought I was never going to get over my ex at one point either and now here we are.

    Been there on both accounts. And was dead wrong. So it seems to be the case for you - the anxiety will go away. :trans-heart:

    • bubbalu [they/them]
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      3 years ago

      It is really good thanks :) I'm still kind of riding the anxiety wave right now but I know next time it'll be that much easier.

  • MarxistHedonism [she/her]
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    3 years ago

    Congratulations!

    So happy for you and wish you many more affirming moments :transshork-happy:

  • grilldaddy [she/her]
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    3 years ago

    Coco Chanel was a terrible person but “the world is your runway” always just goes through my head on days when you’re out in the world truly feeling like yourself 🥰