The absolute devastation of the workers movement after globalization kicked off in the 70s-80s combined with violent counter-revolution across the global south will do that to a MFer. What's the difference between a utopian and a Marxist in a time of global reaction? A fish without water is dead regardless of their theoretical understandings. Props to the real ones who kept the flame alive in the face of it all, not sure I would have been able to survive the whole 50 year stretch without cracking