Therapy and getting on for undiagnosed bipolar 2 helped immensely. It helped me figure myself and as soon as I wasn’t an angry resentful Man, lo and behold more people wanted to be be around me and loneliness slowly started becoming less of an issue.

I’m still struggling with an opiate addiction, but I treat people much better and choose to examine myself before reacting against other people.

Loneliness and atomization is a very dark place to be though, I don’t know if I could handle going back.

I’ll keep that in mind. I always thought there was such thing as a benign abscess, and I’ve had some that have cleared up on their own. Drs will often treat you like shit or second class when they know you are in there for drug use.

For now I’m just going to keep an eye on it. I have no fever and there are none of the telltale red streaks.

No problem. I figured this would be a divisive thread, but I’m also happy to lay it bare and admit I was a piece of shit back then.

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Dudes annoying. Sorry? I don’t flex my politics that’s a stupid flex. Dudes just irritating. And he seems fake

It took some talk with a therapist that I’d rather not bare out on this thread. I figured quite a few things out in therapy and with the help of psychiatry

Thanks man. It’s hard to share this shit. It’s not exactly a nice portrait of myself.

it’s basically like this, you could extend it to anything I was interested in though. Was definitely a piece of work back then.

I don’t know what to tell you, I’m sorry. I was not a good person back then. It took fixing of issues that had with myself to steer me right and realize I’m not owed women’s bodies.

I had a flawed perception, I can’t like turn back time and change that, I can only move forward and be the best person I can be and treat people like human beings

I didn’t say that. I was definitely resentful about it and felt excluded for a long time about it, but my thinking was distorted back then.

It wasn’t the correct like of thinking for sure, it took some serious self examination to correct.

I’m sorry, who are you?

I just didn’t like them in my spaces. I didn’t like it. I was resentful and not very nice.

Yeah never went down that road of PUA redpill. By good graces I’m fairly good looking and tall, so for me I just had to stop acting like an asshole and a creep and that helped immensely. Other dudes need a little more help or they do end up in those dangerous communities.

I don’t know all the answers as to how we fix this. As you’re right, simply telling someone ‘be yourself’ is not enough, it’s more complex and the help needed is more complex.

I try not to hate anybody besides reactionaries anymore.

That’s not what I’m trying to say. I meant it more like I was resentful of them because of my inability to have healthy relationships with them and I blamed them when the onus was on me becoming a healthier and more mature person. You can still disagree, I’ve just found it often to be the case that dudes who don’t know how to interact with women or people period become very resentful without fixing personality issues they themselves have.

Maybe to some people. I don’t mean that at all.

You consider Black Lives Matter and things like anti-fascism waste of time or ‘liberal distractions’ you’re probably a class reductionist.

It’s also usually Marxists, though most Marxists definitely aren’t class reductionist. I find that most of not all class reductionists are Marxist’s and not anarchists or something

I Think this is part of the problem actually. Most of the time it’s shitting on Black Lives Matter for not making itself only about class, and then in the next breath, claiming class reductionism doesn’t exist.

Indeed

Seems like you leave little room for nuance in your analysis of people. I also find it bizarre a supposed leftist has such a cold hearted response to a young progressive politician scared for her life. People like AOC aren’t idealized leftists, but they are the best we have for now.

The people who entered the capital were fascists looking for blood and mayhem. We shouldn’t be showing them sympathy or downplaying them. These are fascists and they are the new face of the Republican Party. They deserve derision and scorn. Leftists are anti-fascist period. We don’t ally with them just because they have revolutionary ambitions like we do

I like it here, but i also think anti-fascism is just an important part of the left as anything else. I’m a white dude, but I’m also a drug addict and mentally ill. I wouldn’t last long in a fascist regime. Meaning I know what it’s like to be othered and not some spoiled upper middle class Wasp kid