This was in my high school and early college years, later on in life I was able develop romantic relationships with them and healthy platonic relationships. I’ll be upfront and say a lot of the times if a straight dude hates women vehemently, it’s probably because he’s not getting laid or able to form any semblance of a romance with a woman.
Yeah self crit is really hard for me to share as well. I think it says a lot about you that you've been able to shift your perspective over time.
Therapy and getting on for undiagnosed bipolar 2 helped immensely. It helped me figure myself and as soon as I wasn’t an angry resentful Man, lo and behold more people wanted to be be around me and loneliness slowly started becoming less of an issue.
I’m still struggling with an opiate addiction, but I treat people much better and choose to examine myself before reacting against other people.
Loneliness and atomization is a very dark place to be though, I don’t know if I could handle going back.