LoeliaPonsonby [he/him,any]

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Cake day: July 31st, 2020

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  • LoeliaPonsonby [he/him,any]togames*Permanently Deleted*
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    3 years ago

    About every five years I forget the name of this game and try to think of it. This time I'll be successful, thanks. Good game. That warehouse/factory level was tough. Reminded me of an arcade shooter, surprised it never was an arcade game.


  • Pretty sure it's the latter. I doubt, for one example of many of his problems, he genuinely doesn't understand that people could not have parents to mooch off of and avoid having to take on debt to survive.

    Seems he just likes giving his predominantly white Calvinist audience a reason to believe they're morally superior following his financial advice because it fits right with their belief they're God's chosen. His one-size-fits-all edicts are either laughably naive or (I'm betting on this one) pretty contemptuous of anyone in poverty.

    Whether it's a grift or his true beliefs, I lean heavily toward "piece of shit".


  • Can I rant for a minute about the vaccine distribution? I've been eligible in phase 1A since December, but unlike other providers in the area, my company doesn't have an affiliated pharmacy or similar so we've been struggling to get staff vaccinated, and we're mostly on our own to find a place to get the vaccine.

    As of today, I'm on probably 15 waitlists, some of which have confirmed my eligibility but don't have appointments. The local public health authority opens appointment signups on certain days, but you sit there clicking through error after error, trying different appointment slots hoping this one will go through, till 30 minutes later you get the message "sorry, no more appointment slots today".

    I got a voicemail this morning to schedule an appointment with a provider we were recommended, but when I called back they said they're not calling people about the vaccine, they're only emailing people after verifying their eligibility, so it must've been about a different appointment (I had not been a patient there, I only gave them my info through the vaccine survey, which they recommended I fill out again).

    It feels like a cruel joke. Meantime I've lost count of how many people have had the virus at work, but I'd estimate 20 percent between staff and clients, conservatively 30 people since April.

    I talked with my psychiatrist and it made me feel better that she also had safety concerns about the vaccines (she brought up her concerns first), but we both were kind of like we'll do it because it's the less-bad option.

    So I'm sitting here wasting a bunch of time trying to get a thing I feel uneasy about, that if we're wrong and I'm not yet eligible I'll get penalized for getting, and if I don't get it it's probably a matter of time before I get sick or unknowingly infect others.

    Shithole country. :amerikkka:


  • LoeliaPonsonby [he/him,any]tomainRacism's over folks
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    3 years ago

    I feel like the standard justification is that the tribe that Florida State's mascot is named after, where as far as I can remember the use of that chant at sports games started, said actually it's cool to use their likeness as a mascot, even the war paint and headdress some white kid always wears to events.

    I don't know how you can say one minuscule modern tribe who you stole everything from giving you the go-ahead makes it fine, but really that's all anyone needs to assuage their guilt and cover their ears to all the others who say the nicknames are hurtful.

    Less importantly I also just think it's boring that the remaining indigenous nicknamed sports teams all use the same chant (fuck you, Deion Sanders).








  • That sucks, sorry that happened. A full psychological evaluation is much better than the quick visits with a psychiatrist, but those can be hella expensive. Diagnoses are working understandings, and unfortunately you kinda have to be your own expert and work with the provider to help them understand what's going on.



  • There are many symptoms in common, it's worth asking your provider. I often find a screener helpful - for me, especially the question of do you ever find yourself getting much less sleep than usual but not really missing it? I'm not a doctor, but true manic/hypomanic sleep cycles would be unlikely to show up if you had ADHD instead of bipolar 2. (Also you probably already know, but skipping psych meds can greatly impact their effectiveness - even one that previously worked can lose its effectiveness if you get back on it after messing with your dose. Brains are weird.)

    Anyway you can ask if your provider has a screener they prefer to use, and/or bring your answers and use that to start the conversation.


  • I definitely feel the diagnosis helping you understand yourself more part. I was disappointed in myself for a while that I never gave the right answers or was open enough to be diagnosed correctly, and that I "wasted" so many years treating (or thinking I had overcome) the wrong one, only to be confused why it came back so hard. Others are baffled my providers and parents never picked up on things or asked the basic screener questions to point in the right direction.

    I'm at peace with it, though. I think I would have made majorly different decisions or not been able to handle it if I had gotten my current diagnosis at a younger age. And it helps to share that feeling with others, and hear how things just came into focus when we learned what's really going on.

    By BPD do you mean borderline personality disorder or bipolar disorder? Always been unsure about that. Never knew whether to include myself as neurodivergent, but I'm glad this place is here.


  • Don't worry, you too can find a literal golden ticket to escape sharing the bed with your floppy sleeping cap-wearing relatives, witness a few child-murders, and like, blackmail an industrialist into giving you his candy factory, I dunno I hated that film.