gonxkilluaotp [he/him]

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  • gonxkilluaotp [he/him]tothe_dunk_tankSo anti natalists are cool
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    4 years ago

    I am extremely privileged. I have never been hungry. My parents were loving and kind. I have never wanted for anything. I have no student debt. I'm am paying off my first mortgage. I am young. I have a loving significant other. I am a programmer.

    Even with all these things, I have always regretted being born. I wish I never had to deal with the burden of life. I have held these opinions since middle school. I can't kill myself because it wouldn't be fair to those who are attached to me. I am locked into a 70-90 year long ride I never chose. My parents' little miracle where they got 1 more chance to raise a child for the fifth time is my curse.

    I would never curse another with this. I never gave consent to be born. Now I am here. Now I will struggle with my comrades to free ourselves from our chains. I sure wish I didn't have to.


  • Franklin was a racist who was concerned about the USA losing its whiteness: https://www.google.com/amp/s/qz.com/904933/a-history-of-american-anti-immigrant-bias-starting-with-benjamin-franklins-hatred-of-the-germans/amp/

    Like most founding fathers, whatever is kinda cool about them is completely offset by their blatant racism and favor of Bourgeoisie electoralism/republicanism.





  • I thought OP was upset that their hardships and struggles as a Trans being exploited for money. I hadn't known that trap was a slur :( Makes sense as soon as someone explained it. Other than calling them female (like one shown on the presentation) or male for the other case, is there any other acceptable name?



  • I am definitely looking for a way out right now. The company I work at makes most of its money subcontracting to other companies, and my manager has made it clear that he has not intention of letting me leave the contract I am on to work on anything that would help round out my resume. "The client just likes you too much." For now I am trapped on a project that uses a java backend and transcompiles java into javascript. I have this feeling that if I don't leave soon, I will be stuck as a Java developer for the rest of my life because that is all I will be hired for. Thanks for your post, I appreciate it.


  • I rounded out 2 years in CS recently. I'm a defense contractor and it is hell. It was really hard for me to find work out of college so I decided to sell my soul to get my first 2 years. Working where I did helped radicalize me. Seeing my client up close and personal helped me realize how deep the rot is. I love to code because I am still young and new, but I can definitely tell that I will need to go back to school at some point to either work on content I enjoy or to teach. Everyone is a chud/lib or just politically illiterate and you take courses once per year that make you watch power points about china bad and how it is "us vs them." If you can avoid defense contractor, but it's reliable work. Shit isn't going anywhere.


  • It's hard to find a good gym with a pool. Swimming is a Bougie sport, but it's very good for you. Unsurprisingly, you need to fork out more to get better services. It's not like OP's fault that they are forced to fork out more money to exercise by swimming. Their social circle's changed? They are at a gym surrounded by bougie ass holes. They aren't changing their social circles by going to a gym with better services.









  • You are taking the Khmer Rouge in a vacuum instead of respecting the complexity of the situation. Khmer Rouge was the result of a combination of ethnic warfare between Laotians, Vietnamese, the USA bombing and fucking the shit out of the region right before the communist party took over, and Khmer that had been going on before the Europeans colonized and destabilized the region, and a newly formed and unconsolidated Communist party. I am not justifying what happened, but pretending it is a "Leftist Genocide" and not the culmination of a ton of fucked shit that had been destroying the region is revisionist.