I just can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t go back to repressing wanting it. I used to think it was pointless because it wouldn’t feminize me enough to make a difference and at this point, that thought doesn’t even dissuade me.

My partner’s been so great and supportive but she’s not into femme people, so we’d end up just being platonic coparents. She’s my best friend and I’m not brave enough to tell her but it’s also not fair to keep from her.

I just feel like I lose no matter what. Every option involves hurting my best friend. It’s just not fair to anyone involved.

  • aaro [they/them, she/her]
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    1 year ago

    all the love comrade trans-heart

    I don't want to purport to know your situation but you have to live true to yourself both for yourself and also so that you can be the best you to those you care about. Being queer is absolutely full of these weird halfway relationships that don't map neatly onto the cishet nuclear family track, and it's rough but it's worth it. Love still holds up. Plus, no shot you'll regret it, don't worry how much it'll feminize you because you'll love every bit that it does meow-hug

    You're in a tough place and I have you in my thoughts, hope things go as well as you could possibly hope and then some no matter what you decide!