I just can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t go back to repressing wanting it. I used to think it was pointless because it wouldn’t feminize me enough to make a difference and at this point, that thought doesn’t even dissuade me.
My partner’s been so great and supportive but she’s not into femme people, so we’d end up just being platonic coparents. She’s my best friend and I’m not brave enough to tell her but it’s also not fair to keep from her.
I just feel like I lose no matter what. Every option involves hurting my best friend. It’s just not fair to anyone involved.
This happened to a friend of mine. Her wife tried to make it work, but was just too straight. Amicable divorce, but the emotions were real messy until they moved into separate houses. Everything stabilized within a year, and now everybody is doing great. My friend ended up being very happy with her transition, basically a new and cooler person.