The genderfluidity is weird though, I've realized it's very very tied to my monthly cycle.
Thank you for sharing this! I've been having an interesting parallel experience where my gender expression feels pretty tied to my level of anxiety. For a long time I felt really stuck on labels and feeling like my gender was 'illegitimate' because it was tied to something so flexible. But recently, I've been able to let go of those feelings and accept that just because I can't really control the forces influencing my identity, or they are external to me making an active decision, that that doesn't make my expression less valid.
God I hear you. For me, I became so much happier when I stopped searching for proof or validation of my identity. When I realized there's not some metaphysical essence of transness that I might or might not have, I became so much more able to actually explore my gender and expression
Thank you for sharing this! I've been having an interesting parallel experience where my gender expression feels pretty tied to my level of anxiety. For a long time I felt really stuck on labels and feeling like my gender was 'illegitimate' because it was tied to something so flexible. But recently, I've been able to let go of those feelings and accept that just because I can't really control the forces influencing my identity, or they are external to me making an active decision, that that doesn't make my expression less valid.
God I hear you. For me, I became so much happier when I stopped searching for proof or validation of my identity. When I realized there's not some metaphysical essence of transness that I might or might not have, I became so much more able to actually explore my gender and expression