i haven't actually done anything physical with my presentation on account of it's been less than a fuckin week but i have suddenly noticed this subtle, keen awareness of myself that i never had before when i'm out in public. Unlike before I'm suddenly deeply, faintly aware that I present as male right now. I literally always have but suddenly I'm just far more aware of it. Using a cringe video game analogy, it's like there's a new little display on the HUD that says: "You present as: Male". That's always been true but now I'm so much more aware of it? It's weird
new little display on the HUD that says "You present as: Male"
This is such an accurate and funny way of putting it. I've always been socially anxious, but now I know exactly why. I'm acutely aware of exactly why. Like unlocking a new layer to the hud hahahaha
Also, there are some zero risk and cheap ways to feel more feminine. I started shaving my legs a month ago. Pretty much the week after my egg cracked. No one has to know unless you tell them and shaved legs plus freshly washed bedsheets is probably one of the best feelings in the world like just in general.
Also, there are some zero risk and cheap ways to feel more feminine.
lmao yeah. still not even a week and bought myself some really femme pajamas. comfy, cozy, get to wear them for 8 hours on end and no one else has to know.
Yeah I'm over a year now since my egg cracked but I am pretty painfully aware most of the time when I'm presenting male, I try to at least reduce it so mentally I'm presenting a gender or NB or something but people still 100% see me as male. Like at work is basically the only place I present "male" but really it's hoodies jeans and doc martens which is 100% a gender neutral outfit. Idk. You could try this?
Oh yeah, I work food service so my uniform is pretty uhhh... Idk how to put it but there's really no difference in "male or female" uniforms. I could get away with not changing my uniform, probably. Or not? Who knows? I'm still in the "oh my god this is all so new" phase where I'm just really excited at all the choices and possibilities
day 5 of not being cis:
i haven't actually done anything physical with my presentation on account of it's been less than a fuckin week but i have suddenly noticed this subtle, keen awareness of myself that i never had before when i'm out in public. Unlike before I'm suddenly deeply, faintly aware that I present as male right now. I literally always have but suddenly I'm just far more aware of it. Using a cringe video game analogy, it's like there's a new little display on the HUD that says: "You present as: Male". That's always been true but now I'm so much more aware of it? It's weird
This is such an accurate and funny way of putting it. I've always been socially anxious, but now I know exactly why. I'm acutely aware of exactly why. Like unlocking a new layer to the hud hahahaha
Also, there are some zero risk and cheap ways to feel more feminine. I started shaving my legs a month ago. Pretty much the week after my egg cracked. No one has to know unless you tell them and shaved legs plus freshly washed bedsheets is probably one of the best feelings in the world like just in general.
lmao yeah. still not even a week and bought myself some really femme pajamas. comfy, cozy, get to wear them for 8 hours on end and no one else has to know.
Yeah I'm over a year now since my egg cracked but I am pretty painfully aware most of the time when I'm presenting male, I try to at least reduce it so mentally I'm presenting a gender or NB or something but people still 100% see me as male. Like at work is basically the only place I present "male" but really it's hoodies jeans and doc martens which is 100% a gender neutral outfit. Idk. You could try this?
Oh yeah, I work food service so my uniform is pretty uhhh... Idk how to put it but there's really no difference in "male or female" uniforms. I could get away with not changing my uniform, probably. Or not? Who knows? I'm still in the "oh my god this is all so new" phase where I'm just really excited at all the choices and possibilities
It's so fun isn't it
My favorite part was figuring out my style (still working on it but I have some bomb outfits now