I keep meeting girls who are interested but they always end up being with guys as well, either as a open-relationship-for-casual-sex with the guy being their primary partner and everyone else including me being casual, or just with a boyfriend as a primary partner and without much desire to interact with or treat me as worthy of attention as a prospective person to be dating. I’ve been growing more disillusioned and jealous of men in general and I’ve even felt it bleeding over into anger at the pan women this happened with, which I feel terrible about, they don’t deserve that anger