Holy shit I feel so fucking big. I'm tall, and heavy, and broad, and I hate all of it. I keep getting some very ED thoughts. The happiest I've ever been with my body was at the height of my eating issues. I wish I had that level of stick to itiveness now. Every time I eat something I hate it. Its keeping me feeling fat and unhappy. And yet I keep eating so much. It actually makes me want to sh. I hate myself and this stupid, gross body.