Sometimes I wish I felt at all fulfilled with online interactions but I just don't. I've never been able to make lasting connections online.
I go out quite a bit just to keep from going stir crazy in my apartment, with some success, but it is stressful spending that whole time masking and performing A Gender (derogatory), and I don't have a lot to show for it...
Some acquaintances at places I'm a regular at, some nice memories with friends, a burning hole in my wallet, and a lot of lost free time that could have been used for self care (but wouldn't have either way so I guess there's no real loss there). It helps my mental health for sure, but only to a point.
This fucks, I am gonna use this going forward. But yeah that's sort of what I feel too, would be nice to know people irl but, the fucking strain holy shit. I guess to me I consider it more harmful than helpful to my mental health...
Sometimes I wish I felt at all fulfilled with online interactions but I just don't. I've never been able to make lasting connections online.
I go out quite a bit just to keep from going stir crazy in my apartment, with some success, but it is stressful spending that whole time masking and performing A Gender (derogatory), and I don't have a lot to show for it...
Some acquaintances at places I'm a regular at, some nice memories with friends, a burning hole in my wallet, and a lot of lost free time that could have been used for self care (but wouldn't have either way so I guess there's no real loss there). It helps my mental health for sure, but only to a point.
This fucks, I am gonna use this going forward. But yeah that's sort of what I feel too, would be nice to know people irl but, the fucking strain holy shit. I guess to me I consider it more harmful than helpful to my mental health...