I was always seen as "mature for my age" but I never felt like I wanted to fit in either, especially around peers I didn't enjoy being around, I knew I was different to them and seen as a joke or weird to others. Being bullied and such didn't help either for how I looked in school and well life at home wasn't good either so I was alienated growing up and well when you leave school and have no friends it is hard to make new friends and I've spent more of my life alone than not.. it's just hard to find good friends irl