It's trauma here too. And poor communication around it more specifically.

She'll flirt and make out with me and then feel guilty when I get turned on, frustrated, and disappointed.

I'll try to talk about it later, and she won't acknowledge anything I say. So, yesterday I asked her point blank if I should stop bringing it up. She said yes.

Then, after I said we should break up if we can't communicate about this, she tells me it was a test :(

I first caught her playing games like this when we first dropped acid together. Flirt, get me excited, and then test if I would respect her boundaries. I told her I felt like she was testing me and she apologized, said it was a habit.

She doesn't seem to care how confusing this. And I'm a mixture of mad, sad, and scared.

Feeling really alone and miss my friends and family, who all live out of state. And moving back home isn't really an option.