oh boy. i have an extremely bad one. i deserve to get thoroughly roasted. its just a massive disaster.
i was in an IRC for depressed/anxious/lonely people. people didn't like me much in there because i wouldnt stop talking about being sad all the time. id get kicked out a lot if i fought with the mods, but was never banned. one very late night i got to talking with someone, and we talked a lot that night...and over the next few days. i had a very quick crush on her, but i didn't know what she looked like. eventually our irc had a video chat together, and she came on and she is STUNNINGLY beautiful. my brain could not process it and i just didn't talk to her that chat because i was just looking at her all night.
anyway i was really into her but because of distance and because she was extremely depressed, she never wanted to actually meet. so because im so fuckin lonely i just went with the next best thing: hanging out with her as much as possible over video chats or voice chats, watching movies/tv together. she'd openly flirt with me, send me nudes, spend time with me. anything BUT date me. eventually we stopped talking and then a few weeks later she was acting weird in IRC one day, so i asked what was up, and she kinda doesnt say anything. instead i have to learn from SOMEONE ELSE, that she asked one of the guys out and wanted to meet him, and she was trying to hide it from me. i remember it being like 7pm, i was in my living room on my laptop and my parents were watching TV and i just wanted to cry but i couldnt, not in front of my parents. i was SO madly in love with her, and it broke me. she and her new BF disappear from the IRC.
a year later her BF comes back, saying they broke up and that SHE was abusive to HIM. then a few weeks later she comes back to IRC. i don't think either of them really apologized to me. eventually me and her get to talking a little bit again but we have a few too many public arguments with each other, just dumb stuff that mostly bothered me but never bothered her. biggest one was that i told her i was annoyed that all the guys in the IRC were just hitting on her because she's hot, and she got extremely mad at me.
but because i'm dumb and lonely i apologized and we talked a lot over the next few weeks. then out of nowhere her now ex-BF messages me saying she's fucking 3 guys and she's using me just like she did before. that gets my blood boiling, but she had been texting me telling me not to believe her ex-BF, he's just making stuff up to get to her. and so i calmed down, but once again we fought, because i didn't initially believe her. i guess they were both horribly abusive to each other. just constantly lying about each other and using me because they know i was so into her.
christ almighty man. this needs a fucking intermission. even cutting it down is not enough.
she apologizes, i half apologize and things are ok again. until theyre not (SURPRIIIIIIIIIIIIISE). eventually the IRC makes the switch to discord and we move and i hate it. for some reason one of the mods is now hitting on her but very sexually, she was talking about meeting one of the chat members IRL (one of the guys who apparently fucks everything, so i hated that idea) and it just would bother me, so i left without saying a word. i didn't want yet another public argument with her.
a year later, i get invited to a more private discord with cool people, including her and not including the mod or the guy she was apparently going to hang out with. we talk a little for the first time in a year, and...it feels like every little spark we had finally disappeared. i still talk to her a lot. she is one of the few people that kind of...LISTEN to what i'm actually saying, sadly.
i don't wish i was with her now, but its more...i wish i could rewind time and just not have fallen so hard for her, yknow? i'd be a lot happier. covid has delayed it but we apparently will meet for the first time in person when one of our IRC friends gets married, which is very very soon. terrified of that.
anyways all of this was because she's hot and i was lonely (h*rny). never again :)
This is why u should never use discord or fall for someone on the internet. Irl is much better. I too have made this mistake around like 50 times but never again for ur own mental health just delete discord and stop trying to find someone on the internet.
oh boy. i have an extremely bad one. i deserve to get thoroughly roasted. its just a massive disaster.
i was in an IRC for depressed/anxious/lonely people. people didn't like me much in there because i wouldnt stop talking about being sad all the time. id get kicked out a lot if i fought with the mods, but was never banned. one very late night i got to talking with someone, and we talked a lot that night...and over the next few days. i had a very quick crush on her, but i didn't know what she looked like. eventually our irc had a video chat together, and she came on and she is STUNNINGLY beautiful. my brain could not process it and i just didn't talk to her that chat because i was just looking at her all night.
anyway i was really into her but because of distance and because she was extremely depressed, she never wanted to actually meet. so because im so fuckin lonely i just went with the next best thing: hanging out with her as much as possible over video chats or voice chats, watching movies/tv together. she'd openly flirt with me, send me nudes, spend time with me. anything BUT date me. eventually we stopped talking and then a few weeks later she was acting weird in IRC one day, so i asked what was up, and she kinda doesnt say anything. instead i have to learn from SOMEONE ELSE, that she asked one of the guys out and wanted to meet him, and she was trying to hide it from me. i remember it being like 7pm, i was in my living room on my laptop and my parents were watching TV and i just wanted to cry but i couldnt, not in front of my parents. i was SO madly in love with her, and it broke me. she and her new BF disappear from the IRC.
a year later her BF comes back, saying they broke up and that SHE was abusive to HIM. then a few weeks later she comes back to IRC. i don't think either of them really apologized to me. eventually me and her get to talking a little bit again but we have a few too many public arguments with each other, just dumb stuff that mostly bothered me but never bothered her. biggest one was that i told her i was annoyed that all the guys in the IRC were just hitting on her because she's hot, and she got extremely mad at me.
but because i'm dumb and lonely i apologized and we talked a lot over the next few weeks. then out of nowhere her now ex-BF messages me saying she's fucking 3 guys and she's using me just like she did before. that gets my blood boiling, but she had been texting me telling me not to believe her ex-BF, he's just making stuff up to get to her. and so i calmed down, but once again we fought, because i didn't initially believe her. i guess they were both horribly abusive to each other. just constantly lying about each other and using me because they know i was so into her.
christ almighty man. this needs a fucking intermission. even cutting it down is not enough.
she apologizes, i half apologize and things are ok again. until theyre not (SURPRIIIIIIIIIIIIISE). eventually the IRC makes the switch to discord and we move and i hate it. for some reason one of the mods is now hitting on her but very sexually, she was talking about meeting one of the chat members IRL (one of the guys who apparently fucks everything, so i hated that idea) and it just would bother me, so i left without saying a word. i didn't want yet another public argument with her.
a year later, i get invited to a more private discord with cool people, including her and not including the mod or the guy she was apparently going to hang out with. we talk a little for the first time in a year, and...it feels like every little spark we had finally disappeared. i still talk to her a lot. she is one of the few people that kind of...LISTEN to what i'm actually saying, sadly.
i don't wish i was with her now, but its more...i wish i could rewind time and just not have fallen so hard for her, yknow? i'd be a lot happier. covid has delayed it but we apparently will meet for the first time in person when one of our IRC friends gets married, which is very very soon. terrified of that.
anyways all of this was because she's hot and i was lonely (h*rny). never again :)
Well, I'm glad you learned a valuable lesson in the end (never be horny).
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If I thought to myself "I want to take advantage of people", that's likely where I'd go 😔
This is why u should never use discord or fall for someone on the internet. Irl is much better. I too have made this mistake around like 50 times but never again for ur own mental health just delete discord and stop trying to find someone on the internet.
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