Like, damn. I just realized all the ways it manifests itself in my life
-friends
-relationships
-food choices
-behavior choices
-media choices
All the fucking choices 
I want a brain transplant
I've been procrastinating my scifi book project for like 10 years. Today I wrote out 62 senior personnel for one spaceship, just for worldbuilding. It's never getting finished.
You did something and should be proud of that in and of itself
I want a brain transplant
same homie. My only solution has been drugs and alcohol cuz they give my brain something else to deal with. Please dont do this. I feel like shit cuz I cant accept "greyzones".
You're aware of it, which is ass I know, but imo its better to be aware than not. Try to be comfortable with mistakes, that might help you made decisions easier, but thats way easier said than done. I understand though, we just gotta keep trying, its all you can do
I don't struggle with it because it is the optimal mode of thinking. I usually have it all and only rarely nothing.
Yeah, I don't really see the point of getting into something unless you're going all the way. Like I'll dip a toe into a new hobby to try it out and then drop it or completely immerse myself in it. The way most people seem to have no passion for anything is fucked up to me
Are you talking about polarization? Because I certainly tend to see things in black and white a lot and I've been working on it (with some progress) for a while...
How to end up on hexbear (polarized thinking turned you into a dirty commie)
I don't usually struggle with it, but people have been struggling with me because of the way I do it, so it's something I need to work on.
I’ve learned there are many different ways to interpret it, that’s for sure. Basically there’s no “medium” point for me in whatever I do, I either go all out or basically don’t exist
oh was in for a penny in for a pound a harmful way of thinking? lol whoopsie daisy
although yeah i _ guess_ its a bad habit with drugs. i'll admit that
