i completely get that, i used to feel the same way. i know me saying this doesn't change your situation at all, but i felt like that for years, including well into my transition, until one day i just didn't anymore. and that feeling comes back sometimes, but mostly it's like a flip was switched and now i like my own body and the way i inhabit it and the world. i hope one day the same happens to you, and to everyone who feels that way
Oh! 🤗 I didn't mean to sound like I still feel that way - a year or so into my transition I realized I didn't hate myself anymore. A switch being flipped is a good description, or like a bolt of lightning. Just: "Oh! Huh."
But before I started I absolutely couldn't imagine it. I just knew I couldn't keep going the way I had been before, I had no idea I could be happy!
i completely get that, i used to feel the same way. i know me saying this doesn't change your situation at all, but i felt like that for years, including well into my transition, until one day i just didn't anymore. and that feeling comes back sometimes, but mostly it's like a flip was switched and now i like my own body and the way i inhabit it and the world. i hope one day the same happens to you, and to everyone who feels that way
Oh! 🤗 I didn't mean to sound like I still feel that way - a year or so into my transition I realized I didn't hate myself anymore. A switch being flipped is a good description, or like a bolt of lightning. Just: "Oh! Huh."
But before I started I absolutely couldn't imagine it. I just knew I couldn't keep going the way I had been before, I had no idea I could be happy!
yeah, exactly!