(Note: I'm not suicidal, but the post deals with those themes.)
Everything just feels so fucked up and hopeless, with no end in sight.
That no matter what we do, neoliberal capitalism will dominate us all until the Earth is completely destroyed and/or the human race goes extinct.
I know that's what the people in charge want: For people to feel so overwhelmed and powerless that they either become apathetic/stop thinking about it for the sake of their sanity or kill themselves so that they won't become a problem later, but fuuuccckkk.
This whole pandemic and everything that is transpiring is really pushing me to feel the same way. I used to think Trump won because people were apathetic and thought (or maybe hoped) that the majority of the people in this country weren't actually so terrible. But as time has gone on and as I have seen all these people not give a shit about others during the pandemic I can't help but feel like there is no point. What is the point of fighting for a better world if there are so many people that are so selfish and thoughtless? I start to think that the people that are getting covid and dying because they didn't wear a mask or attended parties deserve it. I try not to feel this way because I know there are so many people that do deserve a better world but it's hard. These last few months have been such a struggle for me.