(Note: I'm not suicidal, but the post deals with those themes.)
Everything just feels so fucked up and hopeless, with no end in sight.
That no matter what we do, neoliberal capitalism will dominate us all until the Earth is completely destroyed and/or the human race goes extinct.
I know that's what the people in charge want: For people to feel so overwhelmed and powerless that they either become apathetic/stop thinking about it for the sake of their sanity or kill themselves so that they won't become a problem later, but fuuuccckkk.
As an American, I feel like the whole country is in the same headspace. I can't tell if Trump is more Yeltsin or Napoleon III--both were clowns presiding over declining superpowers. At least Napoleon III was the harbinger for the Paris Commune--a cool thing that lasted for a few months before being annihilated. Yeltsin, on the other hand, was the harbinger for the worst decade in post-war Russian history, when a large fraction of the population succumbed to deaths of despair. The US has characteristics of both, with BLM and fleeting events like CHOP acting as sources of hope, and the indifference to the mass death of the opioid crisis and COVID-19 as soul-sucking sources of despair.
The only good news is that neoliberalism is dying. The bad news is that the left is poorly poised to replace it, and it seems to me that the US is headed for a Putin style oligarchy where capital has been ultra-concentrated, and the best we can hope for is a brief, scaled-up version of CHOP in the interim between now and then. Sad times, comrade, sad times.
You said it yourself, it's the objective of enemy propaganda. Maintain vigilance and morale, comrade. We're with you.
Maybe this is an easy cop out, but I feel like the vastly expanded surveillance state + the very limited timeframe imposed by climate change might be too much to overcome (or at least it seems that way)
This whole pandemic and everything that is transpiring is really pushing me to feel the same way. I used to think Trump won because people were apathetic and thought (or maybe hoped) that the majority of the people in this country weren't actually so terrible. But as time has gone on and as I have seen all these people not give a shit about others during the pandemic I can't help but feel like there is no point. What is the point of fighting for a better world if there are so many people that are so selfish and thoughtless? I start to think that the people that are getting covid and dying because they didn't wear a mask or attended parties deserve it. I try not to feel this way because I know there are so many people that do deserve a better world but it's hard. These last few months have been such a struggle for me.
I have decided I’ll only die in two ways: in the Revolution or surrounded by my family when I’m 106 years old.
Similarly, comrade. I hope to die by your side when the day comes, tovarisch.
I find it hard to not give into accelerationist mindset, not because I think that we can rise from the ashes, but because it'd be satisfying to be proven right and sometimes I think that is all we can really hope for anymore.
Okay look you have to be alive to feel superior to these people, lording it over them when you're both dead is not possible – hence for the sake of your spite, live well
on a positive note with further centralization of private companies taking over the entire industry and automation is a good thing for left accelerationism
they might not be good now but left accelerationists are positive that automation will spur revolution
I swallowed the clown pill at the beginning of COVID and it really helped radicalized me.
One of my biggest worries is that in a country like the US, that rage can very easily be redirected towards fellow citizens instead of those in power. Rage is good, of course, but it needs direction if it's going to accomplish anything useful.
I feel this way too pretty often. One big concern I have is that there still is no real organized left, and I wonder if people as a whole might respond to the coming crisis by tearing apart each other instead banding together. The US is a pretty divided country with a population that has been atomized, so I'm not completely hopeful that things won't devolve into people taking revenge or attacking others for their own survival, even on the left. The recent BLM protests have gone much better than I would have expected, so maybe I'm being a little too cynical there.
Shits bad, but there are still things we can do. And the Capitalists are weak and hollow, coasting entirely on false consciousness with barely any material base of power left.
We should be more organised than we are, but a crisis is coming over the next 18 months to prepare through and while we'll likely lose, maybe we won't. We only need the big win in the Imperial Core once and this whole thing comes tumbling down.
