(Note: I'm not suicidal, but the post deals with those themes.)
Everything just feels so fucked up and hopeless, with no end in sight.
That no matter what we do, neoliberal capitalism will dominate us all until the Earth is completely destroyed and/or the human race goes extinct.
I know that's what the people in charge want: For people to feel so overwhelmed and powerless that they either become apathetic/stop thinking about it for the sake of their sanity or kill themselves so that they won't become a problem later, but fuuuccckkk.
I feel this way too pretty often. One big concern I have is that there still is no real organized left, and I wonder if people as a whole might respond to the coming crisis by tearing apart each other instead banding together. The US is a pretty divided country with a population that has been atomized, so I'm not completely hopeful that things won't devolve into people taking revenge or attacking others for their own survival, even on the left. The recent BLM protests have gone much better than I would have expected, so maybe I'm being a little too cynical there.