I am still very early in this whole process, and there is still a lot of self doubt, so I am reading a lot of literature on "Am I trans" and dysphoria.
One concept that people often like to propose in these ressources is the button that makes you the opposite gender, and, crucially, also makes everyone else believe that you have been that way forever.
I don't really like this, because my time as a boy/man is part of who I am. I would not be me without it, and despite all of the problems I had and have due to my gender, it is still part of who I am. I fought through all of this and worked to find out who I want to be by myself. I wouldn't wanna be cis, and I also don't want to cease being the me born out of this struggle.
seriously tho i couldn't be prouder of a long-time user discovering yourself. you're straight up my idol for actually going to central asia and you've gone even further and made me question my own gender expression
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sorry if this is weird but i just realized you made those central asian posts and i'd love to hear more from someone who's actually been there. it's just a dream to me here on the wrong continent. but i read about the MELONS and i can't escape it
Oh thank you, that is very kind. I didn't expect to be recognized as a longtime user. I don't post much.
You can DM me for questions, if you want. Central asia does not only have melons, it also has giant lenin statues overlooking love themed (red hearts etc.) parks/wedding venues.