I’ve found myself interacting my gender much more through theoreticals than through actually trying anything and it’s been hellish. I need to start actually doing stuff but I’m terrified of how I’m going to be perceived.
I’ve found myself interacting my gender much more through theoreticals than through actually trying anything and it’s been hellish. I need to start actually doing stuff but I’m terrified of how I’m going to be perceived.
Yeah, that seems to be quite common actually. Taking the first steps towards transitioning, even if it's just socially, can be daunting. The amount of time people need to take those steps and in what order they take them is different for everyone, and totally depends on your situation. But you'll notice that when you take one step forward, the other steps become easier.
I remember how I wanted to socially transition before I could start HRT, but the idea of going out in public as a woman was scary to me. It then took me a few years before I eventually managed to find a perfect moment to do it, which felt so good it helped me overcome the one hurdle that was still holding me back. With fear turned into excitement, I was only looking forward to what was yet to come. Felt so fucking good.