I had my wife of almost a decade tell me she wasn't attracted to me anymore. I know how you feel. I literally don't even want to be with her anymore; it's been a year, and I feel like my life is way better without her, and I've had other fulfilling relationships since then, both romantic and platonic, that made me feel valued, but for some reason the rejection still hurts even though I don't want to be with her.

It's very weird. But hurting means you're human. Hang in there.