I see you too have stuck around after the end of an open mic night. The comedy scene is chock-o-block full of people who have experienced this, regardless of whether or not they are good comics. I've never seen anybody else talk about this before, but I get my friends from, among other places, the people who just bombed a set. I feel wrong even saying this online, it's way too personal and secret, those people are not entertainment. But if you are the sort who makes friends with misfits, go to pretty much any clown show. "Running away to join the circus" is still a very real phenomenon.
Most comedy clubs have an apartment or a guest house for the acts. It's actually a great scene most times, minus the bickering over who gets to be the headliner which means who gets the best bed. But the people who get left out of that have a scene too, and that's who I'm talking about.
Yeah I'm just waiting for #3 to hit me so I can collect the trophy that was supposed to come with my 'most likely to be famous' yearbook award in high school.
Trust me, if I'm going to let this universe take me back to the void - you can best your ass I'm at least going to take a bastard cop or some fascists with me.
Also consider that they don't want you to live, either. We can fuck them by dying, but we can also fuck them by living. Struggling with this one myself right now because I am just so tired. On the one hand, I'm ready for oblivion. On the other hand, all I've ever wanted is to have a farm. If I can get to be the underground mushroom grandpa who lives in the deepest part of the caves at the end of all of this, I'll hold out for that future.
Every "class clown" from my high school is either broke, an activist, dead, or all three.
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I see you too have stuck around after the end of an open mic night. The comedy scene is chock-o-block full of people who have experienced this, regardless of whether or not they are good comics. I've never seen anybody else talk about this before, but I get my friends from, among other places, the people who just bombed a set. I feel wrong even saying this online, it's way too personal and secret, those people are not entertainment. But if you are the sort who makes friends with misfits, go to pretty much any clown show. "Running away to join the circus" is still a very real phenomenon.
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Most comedy clubs have an apartment or a guest house for the acts. It's actually a great scene most times, minus the bickering over who gets to be the headliner which means who gets the best bed. But the people who get left out of that have a scene too, and that's who I'm talking about.
Yeah I'm just waiting for #3 to hit me so I can collect the trophy that was supposed to come with my 'most likely to be famous' yearbook award in high school.
Not to get all morbid, but death is the only weapon we have left, and it is still just as precious as it was before. Deploy it wisely.
Trust me, if I'm going to let this universe take me back to the void - you can best your ass I'm at least going to take a bastard cop or some fascists with me.
Also consider that they don't want you to live, either. We can fuck them by dying, but we can also fuck them by living. Struggling with this one myself right now because I am just so tired. On the one hand, I'm ready for oblivion. On the other hand, all I've ever wanted is to have a farm. If I can get to be the underground mushroom grandpa who lives in the deepest part of the caves at the end of all of this, I'll hold out for that future.
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