autocorrect keeps wanting to make it "envy," which isn't entirely wrong

How did you figure out you were enby?

I've come to realize that my super-femme presentation is a form of masking, and I'm trying to figure out where I actually fall in the spectrum of gender.

So yeah, how did you figure out you weren't "gender" and were actually enby?

Does just thinking that maybe I'm not either mean that probably I'm not either? Is the state of being unsure and kinda in-between where you identify or what?

  • ashinadash [she/her, comrade/them]
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    2 months ago
    sorry just bs

    Oh man, looking over this thread and going "Oh, no! Uh oh!" It turns out that when I uphold Feinberg thought and decouple the physical aspect of being estrogen-powered* from Gender®, since Gender® is basically a bunch of fake bullshit, all kinds of incredible and funny things might happen.

    Reading messages like "I like you for you, not for any gender(ed) performance" and wondering if people actually like their partners for gendered performance.

    Reading messages like "that "not caring" (perhaps a poor choice of phrasing) is my way of looking at it. Oh, liking trains is male coded? lol, who cares. Dresses are a girl thing? Perfect train attire. I just do whatever I feel like, trying to make a conscious choice not to let the gender binary affect what I do or think." and going Oh, yeah me I think.

    Reading messages like "I reject everything we’ve been taught about gender and each person is their own unique individual" and thinking about my beautiful nonbinary goth wife. About how actually Gender® is literally fake.

    I have truly never cared for or even been able to engage in gender performance, I think. I'm pretty sure I have always been weird as in all aspects of life. Struggle to comprehend gender? Evidently that shit doesn't make any sense to me.

    It's almost not surprising, I was really willful and gung-ho about taking hormones as a kid, but I only ever really used "woman" because it's associated(LOOK THERE IT IS) with being on estrogen. The "lesbian" label always felt better, Idk.

    'My gender is autism and my sexuality is lesbian'? 'My gender is lesbian and my sexuality is trans'? I feel weird, I dunno.

    *SHOULD NOTE, I only ever applied this thought of "hrt=gender" to myself since that was just all 15 year old me was prepared to process. I have never associated the two for anybody else cause that's some silly /tttt/ shit.