as someone with ptsd this shit makes my skin crawl. she is being used, she likely knows it, and has decided to try to milk it in order to stave off the beast via money. it doesnt help that society expects you to have the perfect amount of sadness and the perfect amount of 'not feeling sorry for yourself / overtraumatization' and expects you to put that on display for them at all times, otherwise you are faking it. combine that with being young and being traumatized in formative years and you have a recipe for disaster
Especially for women, too little vulnerability is seen as "frigid" or (misogynist slurs), and too much vulnerability is seen as "hysterical" or (misogynist slurs). :debord-tired:
unironically i do feel like i 'fake it' because i have to modulate so much in order for even doctors to take me seriously about an event that undeniably happened and has records for hospital visits. i hate having to tone myself down or tone myself up when im freaking out. lets not even get into the psychological impact of feeling like you have imposter syndrome over extreme violence being inflicted on you
A lot of that "faking" may well be disassociation, where it's a real feeling that isn't quite "felt" at a cognitive level all the while even while it's there. I don't know your situation or what resources you have available, but emotions can get really weird and hard to place, especially after trauma. :meow-hug:
as someone with ptsd this shit makes my skin crawl. she is being used, she likely knows it, and has decided to try to milk it in order to stave off the beast via money. it doesnt help that society expects you to have the perfect amount of sadness and the perfect amount of 'not feeling sorry for yourself / overtraumatization' and expects you to put that on display for them at all times, otherwise you are faking it. combine that with being young and being traumatized in formative years and you have a recipe for disaster
no fun at all, this post is pain
Especially for women, too little vulnerability is seen as "frigid" or (misogynist slurs), and too much vulnerability is seen as "hysterical" or (misogynist slurs). :debord-tired:
unironically i do feel like i 'fake it' because i have to modulate so much in order for even doctors to take me seriously about an event that undeniably happened and has records for hospital visits. i hate having to tone myself down or tone myself up when im freaking out. lets not even get into the psychological impact of feeling like you have imposter syndrome over extreme violence being inflicted on you
A lot of that "faking" may well be disassociation, where it's a real feeling that isn't quite "felt" at a cognitive level all the while even while it's there. I don't know your situation or what resources you have available, but emotions can get really weird and hard to place, especially after trauma. :meow-hug:
oh yeah the disassociation is really up there and is multifaceted. my brain is swiss cheese, i have resigned my life to bimbodom :ohnoes: