nothings happened yet wtf! where’s my instantaneous magical girl transformation?

seriously tho, i expected some mental change based on how ppl describe the euphoria of being on E, but ig that takes time just like the physical changes.

i can wait tho, i was so indescribably happy last night after injecting. i was tearing up and cuddling with my gf and had amazing sleep. it feels like a new chapter of my life that im more optimistic and joyful for than ive ever been! been waiting almost two years for this moment 🥹

thank you hexbear! i dont know how much longer it would have taken for me to discover my transness if i wasn’t a part of the site with the best trans community on the internet!

and im moving to a medium sized city in a month so ill be in a good place to transition compared to the rural area where i live

i am DIY and made four vials a couple weeks ago. then yesterday i sterilized them at 130C for 30 minutes, pretty easy in oil if you have a digital probe thermometer (i think ppl call them candy thermometers).

my regimen is 11 mg estradiol enanthate stabbed into my butt every 14 days. im planning on getting a blood test in 3 months and adjusting. p sure ill have to up the dose bc im 6’ and 200 lbs. prob gonna try to add progesterone in 6 months to a year even tho the studies on that haven’t been too promising in it helping transfems. prog can actually be pretty cheap if you DIY and mix a powder with coconut/cocoa oil and take it rectally.

  • imikoy [she/her, comrade/them]
    ·
    6 months ago

    mental change expected

    Do know that the intensity of the mental changes vary between different people. I know some people who did have big changes, and some who didn't. I don't have a concrete explanation for this.

    injections into butt

    I remember seeing recommendations of other places for injections, explained by the risk of damaging a nerve that runs in the glutes. But I also remember that there's a safe zone? Take care.

    mixing prog with oil and getting it into the colon

    hmmmmm...

    Anyway, unlimited feminisation upon [she/her, they/them]'s of the Hexbear.

    edit: added they/them

      • imikoy [she/her, comrade/them]
        ·
        6 months ago

        yeah, that place is supposed to be safe

        (where is the emote for estradiol to pair with qin-shi-huangdi-fireball to send estradiol to the comrades)

    • Shinhoshi@lemmygrad.ml
      ·
      6 months ago

      Anyway, unlimited feminisation upon [she/her]'s of the Hexbear.

      Is there a gender therapist for a minute community here? Why am I sad that I wasn't included here...?!

      I guess I have to change my pronouns now... how is Hexbear the only thing that ever moved me down the pipeline?

        • Shinhoshi@lemmygrad.ml
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          6 months ago

          I get why you didn't because not all they/them people would want that (especially AFAB enbies) but it just gave a push to experiment that I hadn't been willing to take before