I hit my peak in high school with that. From "gifted" classes in middle school (which were fun ngl) and reading the textbooks in the first week to just totally bombing when everything transitioned to hardcore memorization and no calculator math equations. after that the whole "smart" thing just felt like a stigma that destroyed my confidence forever
I'm in a similar situation. My parents and teachers have always told me how smart I was and if I only put in a little bit of work I could easily be the best in class and it only led to me developing a huge ego while still getting garbage
grades in the later years and now in uni.
I'm 23 now and to be honest? I still have these borderline delusions that I am somehow the second coming of Einstein or shit like that and that because of that I don't need to study as much even though I'm close to straight up failing university.
I'm fully aware of it but I still can't get it together. I don't want to blame my parents for it it's largely my fault but man, I don't know what to do anymore.
Shoutout to my therapist effectively saying "have you tried making a list" xd
I was 21 when I was going through what you are now (everything went off the rails for me at 23 but that's not really relevant to this). To this day I think I had ADD but was very anti-ADD treatment back then because I saw too many friends get "zombified" by Ritalin and thought it would just kill my spark or something.
I hope I don't sound like I'm suggesting "making a list" lol. Is it just like motivation or boredom issues for you?
yeah i'm kind of old so being online 24/7 wasn't an option then it was more like "online sessions". I will say these days it's done something similar to me expanding myself beyond this rut i'm in. you've recognized the problem though so I think you've taken a good first step to conquering it.
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I hit my peak in high school with that. From "gifted" classes in middle school (which were fun ngl) and reading the textbooks in the first week to just totally bombing when everything transitioned to hardcore memorization and no calculator math equations. after that the whole "smart" thing just felt like a stigma that destroyed my confidence forever
I'm in a similar situation. My parents and teachers have always told me how smart I was and if I only put in a little bit of work I could easily be the best in class and it only led to me developing a huge ego while still getting garbage grades in the later years and now in uni.
I'm 23 now and to be honest? I still have these borderline delusions that I am somehow the second coming of Einstein or shit like that and that because of that I don't need to study as much even though I'm close to straight up failing university.
I'm fully aware of it but I still can't get it together. I don't want to blame my parents for it it's largely my fault but man, I don't know what to do anymore.
Shoutout to my therapist effectively saying "have you tried making a list" xd
I was 21 when I was going through what you are now (everything went off the rails for me at 23 but that's not really relevant to this). To this day I think I had ADD but was very anti-ADD treatment back then because I saw too many friends get "zombified" by Ritalin and thought it would just kill my spark or something.
I hope I don't sound like I'm suggesting "making a list" lol. Is it just like motivation or boredom issues for you?
I think I fried my brains by being online 24/7 and now I'm psychologically incapable of doing anything that takes any effort at all
I'm trying to come off of it but it is difficult
yeah i'm kind of old so being online 24/7 wasn't an option then it was more like "online sessions". I will say these days it's done something similar to me expanding myself beyond this rut i'm in. you've recognized the problem though so I think you've taken a good first step to conquering it.