I get that, I identify as bi, but there's a lot of internalized homophobia and trauma from men that keeps me from ever being sexual with them. I guess it's just a level of intimacy I don't feel comfortable giving, even if it's a one way street like looking at someone

The only time I can remember ever looking at someone else's dick was when I was in a parking lot in the city facing the sidewalk. Some guy running on the side walk was fucking HUNG and was not wearing compression shorts. You could see that shit flopping a solid foot in front of him. And I'm just in the front seat of the car, unable to really avert my gaze anywhere else. I wasn't seeking it, but I definitely saw it