why are we born . why are we alive. why does anything exist. what even is life. what happens when you die fuck fuck fuck shit fuck fuck
what the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck happen when you die
holy shit i'm having a panic attack thinking about what happens to my consciousness when i die
what the fuck how can you just die it doesn't make sense. I can't even remember a time when i wasn't alive
take enough acid and you'll get to observe what it's like to not exist, lol. things get mindfucky when you realize you don't actually need drugs to prove that your experience of consciousness is an illusion in the first place, but it's an essential illusion that you can't make sense of the world without so make sure to put everything back in order when you're done.
If time is infinite then isn't it possible that eventually history and thus your consciousness will repeat itself?
Hi bud.
When you start to panic, lean into the panic. It's scary, at first, but you start to realize that the panic is there to protect you. You panic because it's a mechanism designed to keep you from getting hurt. Right now, it's not functioning as it should because it has you worrying about something that's not a clear or present danger. So by leaning into it, you adapt to the feeling. you get used to it.
As for what everything is, I don't know. But that's a feeling you're having right now because you don't feel in control. You feel like a speck of dust buffeted by the wind. You do not feel like you can do anything about it. And it's true, actually, you can't. But you are in control of things in your life. Some things. Find those things and focus on them. Do something with them. When you start to feel helpless, you are a powerful deity to your own life, and you absolutely do have power. Focus on that.