After surviving being stabbed, shot at, and fucking sexually assaulted I did what any normal person going thru multiple traumatic events does: I started to drink. I am so addicted to alcohol that I shake when I don't have it (I started drinking again a week and a half ago) and after ground scoring a bag of heroin, then smoking DMT at a punk show, I realized I need significant help. I've already been in talks with my ex over who can take care of our dog while I'm in rehab. I love y'all but I'm going dark for 3 or so months until I get in a recovery home. Leave the lights on for me. Imma try to nip this in the bud before I die and spend the next 24 hours absolutely spoiling my dog Basil, who I'm pretty sure I'll never see again after my ex-spouse picks him up. Imma buy him his fav treat: McDonald's fries and hold him and sob.
My ass in rehab is gonna ask the 3 times a week AA meetings how a higher power is willing to save us but lets white phosphorus rain down on innocent children in Gaza. Imma be loud AF.
Idk if this will help but I heard someone say that our god can be the highest version of our own self. That resonated with me.
If someones saying there's an omnipotent god that'd be reasonable of you to think
Instead of equine therapy it'll be riding in a technical with general maintenance
I literally own an rpk (that is semi auto to comply with the feds that are reading this) SO IM HALF WAY THERE.
I've already started my physical training
Just waiting on your recovery comrade
Make sure Basil gets someplace safe, you're going to want him to hold on to when you get out. All the best to you comrade. Addiction is the worst, as one addict to another I hope you can find some peace.
My ex owns a house in Denver. He's going to be okay but giving him up hurts sm
I know that feeling. I had to spend 3 months away from Mr. Softie and I missed him dearly, but your well being is important.
I love you all, I'm exhausted and gonna collapse for a hot minute. Then take Basil to a dog park and try not to sob in public.
Good luck in rehab comrade. You've had a hell of a time recently
Alcohol is a sneaky one, I'm sorry you're stuck in the mud. If you need a meeting to go to when you get out, PM me
You're taking incredible steps. I wish you the best in them. I'm sorry you've been hurting like this, you're doing Basil great in your efforts to get his human better.
