I study computer science and any time I sit down to code, I just browse or watch Youtube. Anything but do the work. Days and even months have gone by like this where I haven't done even an hour of learning. Its tough because in order to code I need to be in front of a screen but my brain refuses to study and just looks for that dopamine hit. My grades have suffered and I feel like a constant failure.

To clarify this is not an effect of the pandemic but has been happening for the past few years.

  • jurassicneil [any]
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    4 years ago

    I've been going through the r/adhdmeme subreddit and holy shit, why am I in almost every single post. I took an online questionnaire on checking for signs of ADHD and I ticked 14 of the 18 questions as yes. I've been cursing myself for the past 5 years for my laziness and lack of motivation to study, thinking myself a failure for not being able to fulfill my responsibilities to my family by deliberately sabotaging my academic record, desperately searching for a reason to why I became like this but never finding it. I have been absolutely floored since finding out that nope it wasn't a character flaw that was causing me to sabotage myself but instead something I've been saddled with my entire life with no choice. I can't thank you and all the comrades that replied to my post enough. Atleast now I know what's causing all of this and I can take steps to better help myself instead of shooting in the dark and hoping it would work. Thank you once again.

    • crime [she/her, any]
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      4 years ago

      Oh man that's a familiar feeling for sure. Glad I could help get you pointed in the right direction. Best of luck to you comrade, definitely feel free to reach out if you've got other questions (especially about the diagnosis process if you live in the states) :heart-sickle:

      I'd also recommend the r/ADHD subreddit as a good compendium of resources and occasional helpful pro tips - it's one of the better subreddits left imo