You know when you look at yourself in the mirror too long and start tripping about the fact that you're really in this body, you're really just a very complex piece of meat and you viscerally exist right now in this moment and there's nothing you can do about it - and then you get that weird out-of-body panic feeling? I'm getting that with the pandemic nowadays. Just, holy shit, guys, what the fuck. How is this happening? How can we just be watching this go on? Nothing is normal and yet we're all acting like it is!
I’m noticing this trend when I look at myself in the mirror naked. Like, when I first look I’m like damn I’m beautiful, but the more I look, the uglier I seem, even tho nothing really changes except my gAzE. It’s both disconcerting and an insight into my mind.
that's called depersonalization or derealization if it starts to extend to the rest of reality. I used to get it with dysphoria and trauma in general can make you disassociate enough to set it off.
happens mildly when i'm sober but it used to happen when i smoked too much dope. one time i went way overboard after a tolerance break and had a full on derealization thing happen that lasted all day. not fun!
You know when you look at yourself in the mirror too long and start tripping about the fact that you're really in this body, you're really just a very complex piece of meat and you viscerally exist right now in this moment and there's nothing you can do about it - and then you get that weird out-of-body panic feeling? I'm getting that with the pandemic nowadays. Just, holy shit, guys, what the fuck. How is this happening? How can we just be watching this go on? Nothing is normal and yet we're all acting like it is!
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someday someone's going to film me dancing and I'm going to be reduced to my constituent atoms
For me photos and videos are fine, but voice recordings are just ... unbearable
I’m noticing this trend when I look at myself in the mirror naked. Like, when I first look I’m like damn I’m beautiful, but the more I look, the uglier I seem, even tho nothing really changes except my gAzE. It’s both disconcerting and an insight into my mind.
that's called depersonalization or derealization if it starts to extend to the rest of reality. I used to get it with dysphoria and trauma in general can make you disassociate enough to set it off.
happens mildly when i'm sober but it used to happen when i smoked too much dope. one time i went way overboard after a tolerance break and had a full on derealization thing happen that lasted all day. not fun!