Fucking exactly. She does help when I call but she acts like Im this massive imposition every single time and constantly tells me "you'll have to do this yourself soon" no matter what it is. The usual afternoon nurse, Greg, is great and has done things for me without me having to ask and feeling embarrassed about it. In fact literally all the other nurses I've encountered so far have been nice, apart from Bernadette who literally sits in her little vestibule reading a magazine and drinking tea from 5am to 1pm and sighs dramatically if you dare to press the button for the nurse. Does she think I enjoy having to ask for help getting out bed sometimes? Because I don't it actually really fucking upsets and embarrasses me.

She's also fucking horrible to Shen (I don't know how it's spelt but that's how it's pronounced) the Chinese nurse who comes with the medication sometimes. She basically blanks her and does this weird closed mouth angry smile the entire time she's here. No fucking idea what that's about (given this is the Midlands, I assume racism)

I just fucking hate her and she does stupid power trippy shit like my Stepfather used to, like specifically making me ask her to press the buzzer for the door if I'm leaving for any reason instead of just buzzing me through when she can see me at the door like literally everyone else does (she will pretend to not see you and ignore you and put a little dramatic show on of ignoring you) or literally waiting until the clock says exactly 10:30am (she will sit there staring at her watch tapping on the glass while making me wait if I'm even 5 seconds early) before she'll let me go for a smoke break, and then handing me a face mask and a slip one by one instead of together and just dumb stupid shit like that. Just total small minded power trip nonsense.