Fuck work

  • 420sixtynine [any,comrade/them]
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    4 years ago

    lazy or childish

    I fucking hate this. So much. My parents (before they and I found out I had a sleep disorder) would call me lazy and say I needed to just go to bed earlier and that I needed to just have more self discipline. Their friends would tease them for waking me up when I was in high school and that they needed to prepare me for the real world. I literally do not wake up after having a 30 minute conversation with people. I only know these conversations happened because they mention them later. It's kind of terrifying to me to know that people can talk to me without my knowledge or consciousness. I love when people give me tips to get up like "Oh have caffeine next to your bed for the second you wake up" or "put your alarm across the room" like I don't wake up, there is no consciousness happening that's not gonna work

    That second point you made about people who wake up early calling you lazy is so true. The best and most successful schedule I ever had was also my busiest but it was on my schedule. I did dual enrollment at the local community college and my classes were 11am-3pm. I also did sports from 3-6 and worked from 6:30-1 or 2am. Then I'd go work out for an hour or two Then I'd go home and do homework until 4 or 5 am, which gave me plentiful sleep to wake up at 10:30, that 5 or 6 hours on my natural sleep cycle was more than enough. Then I'd have people who wake up at 6 or 7 have the audacity to tell me I'm fucking lazy for waking up that late when they spend 8-10 hours a day asleep, because somehow the position of the sun when I wake up determines how much effort I put in my day. I was lazy even though I was working from the time I got up for the next 18-19 hours, which I could do easily because I was actually getting rest