is this an ADHD thing or at least part of it bc I'm still new to this whole knowing I have ADHD thing.
I've been mostly doing my work but sometimes I just ugh no motivation to do it and so I just lose out on those points and zoom classes have been so difficult so I haven't been to a lecture in like a month but now I'm playing catch up with recordings which at least I can watch them in 3x speed and it's just so daunting to yet again have another semester, what is this my 28th or 29th? where I've dug myself into a hole and I have to play the 25 hours of work a day to catch up but with each passing semester I want to put in that massive grind of effort less and less, and idk how I'm gonna do it this time, I've even got adderall now and I still don't feel like I have the willpower to do it.
idk this just kinda blows I always feel shitty about myself too bc like I always start off so good and tell myself this time will be different and then boom I fail just as hard
But staring at the wall is so much better than doing it what do to not stare at wall
rapidly alternate between staring at wall and staring at book
"fuck this book, i'm going to stare at the wall"
"uuuughhhh, fuck this wall, i'm wasting my time. ok, i'll stare at this book for a little bit"
"fuck this book, i'm going to stare at the wall"
do this forever until you barely make it through whatever it is you need to get done
Actually this sounds like amazing advice, it's so hard to get good advice about ADHD things and wow this is I think the first time that I've heard something that actually sounds helpful to my life thank you!