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  • crime [she/her, any]
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    4 years ago

    People spending the whole day making extremely hostile posts about rules about food tends to make my eating disorder rear its head so I end up spiraling for awhile, mainly

    • sappho [she/her]
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      4 years ago

      Me too. My food restriction was always about not "deserving" to eat, so anything moralistic is really tough to deal with.

      • aaaaaaadjsf [he/him, comrade/them]
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        4 years ago
        CW: discussion about potential eating disorders

        Yeah it was a bad day for me to log on to this website. I'm currently struggling to even get two meals a day down. Between the shit tier vegan bait posting and the reactionary, r*ddit brain arguments against veganism I think I'm going to log off for a bit.

        • sappho [she/her]
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          4 years ago

          I should probably follow your lead and log off too. I just started a more intensive trauma therapy modality and it's been wearing me out, I really don't need to add any extra stress.

          disordered eating stuff

          I just spent two days full-on bingeing/dissociating after a difficult session, and then until I saw this comment thread I hadn't even realized that I hadn't eaten at all today. It's always one or the other extreme for me.

          • aaaaaaadjsf [he/him, comrade/them]
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            4 years ago
            CW: more eating disorder stuff

            Yeah the binge eating followed by not eating anything really gets to me sometimes. The other day during a binge I managed to eat fucking 4000 calories in one day. Then the next week I don't eat till 5 in the afternoon. I'm really trying to find something that works, I'm over 6ft/183cm tall and weigh in between 110-120lbs/50-55kg, I know this isn't healthy but fuck I'm really trying y'know?

      • crime [she/her, any]
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        4 years ago

        Oh mood, me too. Hope you're hanging in there comrade :heart-sickle:

      • crime [she/her, any]
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        4 years ago

        Yeah same, I do my best but every time I've gone too far down trying has wound up super unhealthy. Hope you're doing okay comrade :heart-sickle: